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lol tim hortons.

Posted on 2008.08.19 at 18:00
i got fired.

so.

Posted on 2008.07.15 at 15:13
Current Mood: cold
Current Music: casimir pulaski day
3 on ap art history.
4 on ap portfolio.
excellent.
i have an appointment with the admissions lady at CCS. i realize that i'm not going to get into CCS. i don't do work that they're going to like. :]
i'm going to go take pics of my new sketches.

i am lost again.

Posted on 2008.03.21 at 10:49
Current Mood: guilty
Current Music: radiohead-videotape
at least i have radiohead.

When I'm at the pearly gates
This will be on my videotape, my videotape
Mephistopheles is just beneath
and he's reaching up to grab me

This is one for the good days
and i have it all here
In red, blue, green
Red, blue, green

You are my center
When i spin away
Out of control on videotape
On videotape
On videotape
On videotape

This is my way of saying goodbye
Because I can't do it face to face
I'm talking to you after it's too late
From my videotape

No matter what happens now
You shouldn't be afraid
Because I know today has been the most perfect day I've ever seen.

debating.

Posted on 2007.10.20 at 01:03
Current Mood: disappointed
so i was thinking about whether or not i wanted to delete my livejournal.
and then something occurred to me.
if i delete it, then i can't figure out who showed mine and megan's livejournal to mrs. ramirez.
first of all, i know it was someone who has a livejournal. that's obvious enough. now who was it? let me think.. oh wait, i already know.
to the person who turned me in....that comment was written like 5 days ago, right after the big argument we had gotten into with her, so i was ranting. i only wanted to help megan. that's it, really.. if i would have noticed that someone else was making her that upset, then i would have said crap about them too. this doesn't even mean that i believe or mean what i'm saying, i'm just trying to help a friend.
and you know what else? art is my life. if i wanted to screw my art career up, i would have talked to them myself. i tell people what i think about them to their face, unlike you...you just go around backstabbing and trying to ruin other people. yeah, you took a good shot at me, but this just means that i'm going to try even harder to win their approval. that's what i've been trying to do for almost 3 years now. i am so tired of apologizing for things that i said when i was in a different state of mind. that is not the person i am-that comment is not what i think about them, or what i truly believe at all.
the truth is, that even though ramirez has been tough on all of us, and sometimes we get into arguments... at least she is trying to push us into working and being productive. these deadlines are terrible, but really...you can spend every day at home and during school and finish by the due date. it's not impossible, it just requires you to spend more time on art.

and as a final note...i hope that you realize that what you did was really wrong. not only did you interfere with things going on in megan's life, but you also caused a lot of problems with me and my teachers. instead of getting back at you, though, i'm just going to make you even more mad by making better work. i think that's a pretty good solution, don't you?

across the universe was horrible.

Posted on 2007.10.08 at 22:44
absolutely horrible.
they murdered every beatles song they could.
tried to make a fake jimi hendrix, and a fake janis joplin.
and you know what?
i almost walked out like a quarter of the way through.
it was the worst thing i have ever seen.
you really don't understand good music or a good movie if you like across the universe.
i can't believe anyone has the guts to ruin the beatles, janis joplin, and jimi hendrix all in one movie.
-death-

dear audrey.

Posted on 2007.09.15 at 18:54
Current Mood: enraged
i hope you got that last comment i left on your livejournal.
i'd just like to add that if you mess with my friends, you will have to deal with me. and trust me, that wont be fun. do you know a girl named donna, because i believe that you would get along with her pretty well. she's a bitch like you ^^
if i have to hear that you have been trying to "help" marie again, i'm going to flip out. leave her alone, she has other people to talk to other than you. people like.... oh right, her FRIENDS....which you don't have...because you wont shut the hell up and apologize in a humble manner.
don't mess with jess or megan, either. if you're going to talk shit about someone, go ahead and talk shit about me. but don't you dare go and try to fuck up things in their life. they're nice, audrey... nice being a term you are not aware of.
so go ahead, i will be your punching bag from now on. come on, what's the best you can throw at me??? hmm????????

driver's training

Posted on 2007.06.21 at 18:34
Current Location: office, freezing my ass off.
Current Mood: lol look at this thing.
Current Music: rihanna
is so lame.

but i had a good drive today and my DT instructor gave me a check really close to the "good" box, most likely because i didn't see a stop sign because of a tree...oh and i almost hit a kid because they started running across the crosswalk when they weren't supposed to. whatevvv. it was fun.
the girl who drove second almost drove into oncoming traffic, blew 3 stop signs, went 10 over the speed limit multiple times, and forgot to put her turn signal on before several turns at intersections. i guess it's okay because she's partially deaf and can't see more than 15 feet in front of the car. they'll give her the permit, anyway. at least she's nice.
my stepmom is being a bitch today. she also almost drove into oncoming traffic because she was on her cellphone and was smoking and looking in the mirror all at the same time. if we ever get into an accident, at least i know it's HER door that doesn't open. the handle has been broken for months, and so has the a/c, but you know.. she just can't take time out of her "busy" schedule to get either fixed. i'm hoping the car flips over just the right way and she's trapped in there. i'm also hoping that i'm with her when it happens and i escape... but the only reason i couldn't call 9/11 for help is because either A) i still don't have a cell phone -.- or B)both my hands are broken severely, but can be repaired to normal. some days when we're driving and it's raining and she isn't paying attention, i can see it happening. i'm always happy for the rest of the day after that. she isn't a very good parent. ahahahaha >:]
.....

oh
and
panda <3s lemur and can't wait to see her this weekend. ^^

obama owning keyes (this is for alisha)

Posted on 2007.06.08 at 19:11
Current Mood: cheerful

hillz.

Posted on 2007.06.04 at 20:38
Current Mood: energetic
hillary clinton is definitely the most amazing presidential candidate.

<3!

Posted on 2007.05.12 at 16:08
Current Mood: loved
Current Music: the plain white t's
hey there delilah is a really cute song.
i think i'll listen to it on repeat till i am content.

chicago!

Posted on 2007.04.27 at 21:22
Current Mood: peacceeee.
Current Music: without mythologies-the weakerthans
5am. saturday morning. that's when i leave!!!
it's gonna be the best ever! there will be speakers and lots of cardboard homes! and tons of new people to meet! i'm finally a part of something really big. this is a big movement. ^^




(but i am missing bliss)

STAND BY YOUR MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Posted on 2007.03.24 at 20:02
Current Mood: RAHR!
Current Music: stand by your man-me first and the gimme gimmies
lollllll... i'm listening to me first and the gimme gimmies. description: super ultra hot punk rock cover song band. hell yessssss!

my parents are out of town this weekend and i'm so effing bored. i have money, but i have nowhere to go and no way to get there. my brain is dyinggggggg.

anxietyyyyyy all week....i've been feeling like i want to collapse after ripping someone's eyes out.

last night some girl scouts came to my door and i couldn't help buying candy from them. they were adorable little kids. so i bought 5 dollars worth of candy, which equalled 20 reeses peanut butter cups. and then i realized that i don't even like peanut butter... but i ate a ton of them anyway since i felt so emo. shelby (bliss) called and she told me that she is currently a registered girl scout. and she said "what would you do if i went to your house and tried to sell you candy?" and then i didn't say anything because i felt like such a creep....but i was cheered up anyway cuz she's my favorite and i loveee talking to her. i talk about her too much. hahahahah.... i got her to like bright eyes!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D massive accomplishment, lollllll.


i feel bad about the whole situation with christina abdo. maybe she will read this... but if she doesn't, then i guess i hope at some point she will really forgive me and we can be friends again. i still think she hates me. it's like she got her old friends back and now i am not interesting anymore. oh well.

conor.

and i kissed you in a style clark gable would have admired (i thought it classic)

Posted on 2007.03.16 at 23:18
Current Mood: enthralled
Current Music: the postal service
today was kinda lame.
the art room was packed.
and i had to take a binder test in english that i wasn't prepared for. so i coped. A+
i forgot to write a paper for ap govt, oh well, i don't care anyway.
and then i saw megan stein at lunch and i knew she had been crying, i just never ask people what's the matter anymore. i can't believe they wont let her go to japan. i say we all protest. diabetics have rights, too. i think it's discrimination based on health issues. i say we all band together and fight the system. FOR REAL, people.
math class was ridiculous, people were screaming and i got stuck in the dumb group. ugh.
i really love astronomy class, i like learning about the moon and planets. PLUTO ISN'T A PLANET, LOLZ.
i wasn't feeling very well today. perhaps i haven't been getting enough sleep. seems like whenever i do sleep, i wake up in 1 hour intervals, though. i've been listening to bright eyes for the entire day, mostly because i'm really excited about the concert!
i love getting notes...and writing them in my little black journal (named mortimer, since that's my favorite name). <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

i almost...

Posted on 2007.03.13 at 21:21
Current Mood: good
forgot how to breathe.

...what.

Posted on 2007.03.09 at 22:47
Current Mood: soul patch mood.
Current Music: the birthday massacre
i'm not sure why i feel so angry, because i shouldn't.
i'm pretty sure i had a good day.
but the movie ghost rider was either terrible
or i just wasn't paying attention...which wasn't my fault.

i'm finding it difficult to say what i mean to say
without sounding like i can't form a sentence.
so i end up sounding like i don't mean what i say
or i never say it at all, which makes me scared.
she makes me forget how to speak, i guess.
and normally i am alright with words.
and i keep looking away from her,
but it's only because i don't want to say something stupid.
i have a bad habit of ruining everything.
i am way too paranoid.
and i am always thinking.
and i am falling way too fast for this girl.
but i can't help any of it.

ann coulter = david duke

Posted on 2007.03.07 at 16:31
Current Mood: ann coulter is a fag! ^^
so i keep getting all these newsletter things from human rights campaign... and i got one today that read:
"By now, most of the world is aware of Ann Coulter’s remarks last Friday that disgustingly referred to Senator John Edwards as a “faggot.”
After her comments, HRC immediately condemned her remarks by issuing this release, and HRC Coming Out Spokesman and former NBA star John Ameachi prepared a video response posted on YouTube.
Last night, Coulter defended herself on Fox News by saying “faggot" isn’t offensive to gays”. Wrong! We all know the truth is that “faggot” is a loaded word. It is a weapon used to demean and wound our community. And perhaps she should explain to the tens of thousands of gay kids, whose personal safety is too often threatened, that when they are called “faggot” in school hallways and playgrounds, it isn’t anti-gay.
Would so many of our elected officials and members of the news media be so indifferent if Coulter had gone on a racist, anti-Semitic tirade? Of course not. The fact is that everyone should be treating Ann Coulter as the equivalent of David Duke. Because she is."

lol. fuck you, ann coulter, you faggot. :]

read my mind.

Posted on 2007.03.04 at 22:02
Current Mood: what.
Current Music: run - snow patrol
my sister and i went to an indian restaurant. i don't remember what i got. i don't remember what it tasted like. i don't remember anything except for mango ice cream that tasted like cheesecake. she even said it didn't taste like ice cream, just that it tasted like a big wad of mangoish cheesecake. and i think we were both alright with that.
her best friend mike is moving to hawaii 2morro; he had all his stuff packed in these giant dufflebags and i could have sworn you coulda fit 2 people in each. that's scary to think that, but it's also the way my mind works. it's kind of like he was a brother to me, and like i'm losing him too. it's sad because he was a great guy, but it's great that my sister gets to go live with him in hawaii.
ginger says her birthday is the same day that hawaii has their gay pride fest, june 2nd. she also says that she's going to play in the pride fest band thing. she's also joining a really sweet bob marley-like band down in hawaii. her life is finally going to be together, at least i think so. it always killed me to see her living a life that she clearly wasn't happy with. i just want her to be happy.
im wearing a hat that mike (the best friend) gave me, and a pirate necklace that ginger gave me. and i feel like this is all i am going to have to remember them by. there's something slightly depressing about that moment where you realize "holy shit, they're really leaving."
what am i doing with my life? i feel incoherent, yet i can type. and my eyes are glued to the computer screen, even though i know i should be doing homework. resolution (motion city soundtrack) is playing on the computer, and it's like i can't hear it. i think i've been lying to myself lately. i don't think i'm so happy. i think that i haven't really had any good days, because there's always something missing. i don't want to go back to the way things were. i just want things to remain like this because i have no idea how to live anymore. all i am capable of doing is breathing and blinking and necessary things.... with the exception of eating, because i only eat food when i feel i am absolutely dying. i am always dead tired. what the hell is there to do around here? what the hell is going on.....

emo farm.

Posted on 2007.02.25 at 20:32
Current Mood: loved
Current Music: hellogoodbye - oh, it is love
i don't think i've ever been this happy. it's terrible, just terrible.
jojo keeps telling me how sad she is, and you know, it's not that i don't feel sorta bad for her......... lol yeah that's what it is. she caused all her own goddamn problems. i'm glad to shove that drama aside, reallyyyy glad.
everything is falling into place. i'm even getting better grades.
i've been painting, even though i'm not sad... which means that i AM capable of making art that isn't depressing..... and i don't need to be sad to paint or draw. i know that seems odd, but i was used to drawing or whatever when i was sad. i don't know how to explain it.
the world is a giant emo farm. ^^

insomnia.

Posted on 2007.02.23 at 02:51
Current Mood: i like the word enthralled.
Current Music: marvelous things - eisley
i think i have been staying up much too late. i'm usually playing an online game... lol. jess started playing now, so it's like my whole world just got better. hey im lvl 28 i think.. hmm... or 29 im not sure.... idk. whatever!

i have a bad feeling i'm going to end up like this: <////3 but right now i'm all: <3 <3 <3 <3 :D <3 <3 <3 so maybe it'll only hurt a little bit. i really don't want to end up like: </3 i think i really like this girl. but apparently so do a million other people, including boys.....and i feel very threatened. one boy wouldn't leave her alone today.. it frightens me. i usually don't feel threatened that i'm going to get replaced by some stupid boy or some stupid girl... but i guess things are different now. i really don't think i should like her this much. this isn't how it was supposed to be. but i think i like it anyway. she is adorable and she makes me laugh (instead of making me depressed and suicidal). yay.

grahrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Posted on 2007.02.19 at 20:51
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: the feeling - sewn
so i was supposed to wake up at 9am today, but my fucking alarm did not even ring or anything... then the phone rang at like 10am and i woke up and ran downstairs and answered it.. and it was lover calling.
so basically, she said she would be at my house in like 20 minutes. so i was like OKAYYYYY and then hung up and had to rush to take a shower and stuff.
then she was at my door in like 20 or 30 minutes.. idk.
and i went to her house and we found out that we have the same bday. only she is a sophomore. idk it was interesting. she then tried to pic of one of my weird faces.. but they never turned out and im just odd looking.. but she finally got a good one of the 2 of us and its her phone background now. roar. its cute.
i had a good day. :]

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